In 3mths tym i lost 3 precious life~ July - my dearly lil bro woei fa , Aug - katherine , Sept - my fren melvin lau. Nvr tho i'll hv 2 go thru tis pain n reality~ Hard 2 acept it bt hv 2 force 2 acept. ARGHH~!!!! T.T I reli pray 4 everytyn will start gt bak 2 smooth on oct onwards~ no mre pain n leavin pls.... pls... pls...
I feel vry heartache for 'him' as well~ I knw he's oky , bt some part of d feelin tells me tat , 'oky' jz a dress of him~ i believe he's jz numb ord~ I try my best 2 keep him acc most of d tym , bt i seems useless n cnt help in anytyn othr thn trouble him~ haiz~
I wana search 4 a plce tat i cud explod my sadnes n scare thr~ ppl wil owes tinks tat im crazy , y do i scare so mch~?? i duno aso~ wat i knw is i dun fel safe n trust most of d tym~ evn towrds prnts , i hardly found d safe i wan , d trust thy giv mkes me feel so fake~ is lyk thy r pretndin~ bt i duno wthr is tat my own feelin o tats d fact~! mayb i sud rent a room outside whn im able 2 , tat plce shall b whr me wil b xp~ I dislike styin at hm, tis start sinz i was vry young , oni nw i found y~ I dislike tis hm~ wat d 'f'~ I hv chnge tis, i dun wan it turn worst~ Thanks for undrstnd part of me....
